For the past three years, I have joined with a team of friends to participate in G.I.S.H.W.H.E.S. Translation: the Greatest International Scavenger Hunt the World Has Ever Seen. It is put on by the Random Acts of Kindness Foundation annually in August and is a week of working with your team to attempt to complete a 100+ list of scavenger hunt items. It is a week to challenge myself to do it now. To do it the best I can, right now, instead of waiting to be able to do it 'right' or 'perfectly'. When I was a freshman in college, my father took up painting. He was a Bob Ross fan and item #118 this year was to paint a Bob Ross painting. I immediately connected with that idea and signed up for it. Almost immediately afterwards, I regretted it. But my partner went out and bought the supplies and I found myself facing the timer and realizing that I could either sit down and try or I could quit without trying. I could attempt and possibly fail. Or I could pre-fail. Which in some ways seemed like a good way to avoid humiliation and save time. The pressure of being on team and the time slipping away from me pushed me into action. And I painted this:
My first adult attempt at painting. It turned out reasonably well. I was shocked. When I see this painting, which my family hung in our family room over my confused and embarrassed protests, I am reminded that what I have decided about who I am and what I can do is at least as much about what I am willing to try as what I am capable of doing.